Putting Your Trust in Him.

     Have you ever heard the song "Lean On Me?" yeah... that's an old one fine, but how about "Angel By Your Side?" Do any of you girls have a best friend that you think of when you hear these songs? One that had cried and laughed with you? One you joke you dumb jokes with? One you turn to whenever you're upset or have just had a fight with your mom or dad? I know some of you are saying "No" right now. I very sad, very longing, very "there's none of those in the world... or at least none left. " kind of No. well I've got some good news for you miss. ;) You DO have a best friend like that!! "who??!" you ask, "I've certainly never seen her. :P " well. Maybe you've never seen Him, but you talk to Him everyday. (My sister married a guy she met over the internet.. and no, it wasn't even a dating service web-sight thing, and those two are the two most in-love people I've ever seen in my entire life! She had never seen him (except on skype, but still) before she knew she loved him and he knew he loved her. ) that's right, you all know who I'm talking about. I'm talking about JESUS. I know it sounds a little (okay... a lot) generic, but girls, He love you SO MUCH! He wants a relationship with you more than any best friend could and will EVER want one. I mean, let's face it, we all get sick of each other at some point in life, or annoyed with each other or mad at each other. God will never get sick of you.
       Hey you, yes you, with the obnoxious laugh that laughs so loud she shakes her desk at things other people never laugh at. He's NEVER annoyed with you! He love hearing that amazing and excited sense of humor!
     Hey you who spills every drink of everything and everyone, (even if it's a really attractive guy... trust me, I've been there...) He never gets frustrated with you! If you spilled drink after drink on him, He'd just smile at your blushing face and tell you it was fine, that He needed a cool off anyway. ;)
     Hey you with distracted mind, or maybe the ears that never catch everything everyone's saying and has to ask "sorry what?" over and over and over again until they get mad and you just say "oh!" even though you still have NO CLUE what they're talking about. He ALWAYS hears you! see, Jesus listens to us SO SO intimately, so very closely, that he even can hear what you're thinking. ;) (I'd say that's honestly the coolest best friend and best best friend anyone could have. like, ever!)
    I was reminded of this tonight as I sat here at my table, bawling about the fact that I had gone places this weekend and done things without giving much regard to my school, and now I had a whole pile of papers to write, biology to do, (<< lots and LOTS of that...) and I hadn't really remembered my mom's rule about no youth group on Wednesday if I didn't have my homework done by Friday. She was frustrated with me, and she told my dad, who now wants to see me when it's done... I have plans for the next 4 weekends of my life! I can't CAN'T get grounded!! please!! and I had a really really long weekend this weekend, I'd been ready to cry all day cuz I was sick anyway with a cold and I lost my voice yesterday and not to mention I had already had one (okay fine... 2) emotional break-downs today about friend drama and family drama. (Stupid Life. )
     So as I'm sitting here bawling and sniffling and blowing my red stuffy/runny (whatever it feels like doing at the moment) nose, I realized two things. First, I realized that I was getting my Literature homework all wet, and I needed to stop cuz I could read it or think about it now anyways, and I realized that I had someone who says to turn to him in all times. The good and the bad.

so... Instead of writing a paper, I started typing to my savior. here, I'll share my prayer with you. :)

     "Dear Jesus.

I need your help tonight. Today’s been such a long day, such a hard hard HARD day! Please dry my tears Lord. Please let my distracted and stressed brain remember that you love me and you put me here for a purpose, but right now I need to work on my school. Please wrap me in your warm loving arms and tell me that you’ll take care of me, and that school is just school, and today is just one day, and that tomorrow I will laugh and smile again. My cheeks will plump up and my eyes will sparkle as I giggle with joy about life.  Please give me the strength and the mindset to do my school, and not worry about what’s going to happen tomorrow, and not focus on later. Bless me with a calmed spirit Jesus, so I can be reminded of your stead-fast love, even on the hard days. I love you so much Jesus, I, in all things, want to please you, even though sometimes I really suck at it. Bless me with understanding tonight so I don’t have to read things over and over again, and bless me with a quick-thinking mind and a steady hand that can spell things right on the first try. (miracle I know, but who better to work a miracle than you?) Thank you so much daddy. I love you too. <3" 

     Do you wanna know a pretty cool secret? Of course you do, us girls would never miss out on a secret right? ;) I had stopped crying and started to feel so much SO MUCH calmer by "please give me the strength." I had stopped crying completely (and my nose stopped running too!  ;) ) and started to instantly feel okay again. Wow right? even though I still have a weeks worth to do of biology, and a Chapter to read in my long (LONG LONG LONG BORING!) book, I know I can do it. Even though I was up at 7 am this morning and was really tired I feel like I can do this! I feel re-energized and my confidence is built on God. Remember girls, when you ask something like "how can you have confidence when you can't see something?" Blind people do it all the time. If they didn't, they'd die very quickly, or become lost and confused. We are but lost sheep to our amazing all-mighty God.
      Are any of you horse girls? Then you know very well that a blind horse has to trust you to let you lead it. You are a blind horse to a very kind and very gentle rider. When you're scared, and you don't know if you can make it down that hill without seeing anything, remember to quiet yourself before Him and tell Him how you're feeling. He will lead you down the path with ease, and you WILL do it, even when it's hard!

      Remember what Jesus said in John. :)

 

Just remember, dear sisters of mine, dear princesses of God whom I look forward to meeting one day. God knows what He's doing, He always has, even when times are really hard. That doesn't mean YOU know what He's doing. Of course you don't. Look how small you are! all you can do it stretch your arms and remember that He won't let you fall, He loves you too much for that. ;) 

" Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge."

~ Psalm 62:8

Well, girls, here's your favorite part. ;) I DARE YOU. To take this pen and paper that I've given you in the picture here... (fine. go get your own. I just like the stationary. ;) ) and Write a letter to Him right now. He loves you more than any friend you could ever ever hope to make! He deserves to be written to! Go ahead, tell Him ONE THING you're going to trust Him with today, then seal the letter and date it and put it in your hope chest (I have a hope bin. whatever works...) In 3 months, I want you to go back and open that letter, read it, and pray about it all over again. or write a new one. See if God replied to the mail box in your heart. It might take Him a little longer than a couple months, but he will ALWAYS reply, remember, He know what he's doing, not us. ;)    

                                            

And on that note I must bid all you lovey ladies ague! I'm going to go make some coffee and get started! We'll see how my meeting with my dad goes, but I think it won't be as bad as my dramatic mind made it seem. He's a pretty cool guy once you get to know Him. ;) I love you all and hope and pray that you got something out of this! Remember, I'm your sister, older or younger, and I'm here for you always! If you ever just need to vent, or need some prayer, E-mail me! (amiraforgod@gmail.com) 

God Bless You're beautiful faces ladies! ;) haha goodnight! 

~Ella Amira